The Quest for the Authentic Self is a Blog dedicated to personal and spiritual growth.  As we peel away the layers of who we are NOT we get closer and closer to who we really are.  This has been my personal journey and I know that I share it with many. 

Although I have my fingers in a lot of different pies, the one thing that ties it all together is that I am doing the things I love to do!  I am a highly creative individual and it took me twenty of my adult years to step into that creativity and stop investing my energy in areas that just didn’t feel authentic.  I’ve been in banking, mortgage brokering, Vocational Rehabilitation and other “Corporate” structures that always left me feeling cold and empty.  I realized that I just didn’t fit into those “structures” and to do it for the money was nothing short of prostitution.  So I stopped being a prostitute and started being true to myself.

Thus The Quest begins….

When I first decided that I was finished with having a “JOB” it was a little scary.  I wondered how I would make enough money to live on.  But it seemed the more authentically I lived my life the more the good things in life seemed to find their way to me.  I did have a lot of failures along the way, and I realized they were not really failures but lessons and initiations.

One thing I learned was not to put all my eggs in one basket.  I was multi-talented, so I best use all my abilities.  This seemed to be key for me.  I am a musician, a clinical hypnotherapist, a Web Designer and Marketer, a writer, a counselor, a minister and had a specialized niche offering a spiritual approach to recovering from narcissistic abuse.  Really these are not the things I AM at all, but rather the things I do.  If I were to pick just one area and focus exclusively on that I would get bored and have trouble succeeding.  I know, I’ve done it!  In fact a lot of my earlier reading let me to the belief that I needed to focus on one area and one area alone.  It just never worked for me.

Now I can see why!  All of my talents and skills work together to form a whole.  Every part of me is important! 

When I was in my twenties I made a decision that if I could make my living doing anything I wanted to do and money wasn’t an issue, I would be a writer, a counselor and a musician.  Well, I was always these things, I just needed to do them more and embrace these gifts.  Now I look back and laugh because I made it!  I’m really doing what I love. 

Money itself takes on a different meaning as we step onto our authentic path.  What I came to realize is that I never knew where the money was going to come from but I always seemed to have what I needed.  I didn’t lead a lavish lifestyle and always conscious of my spending, but I always had enough.  The more I exercised faith and trust in the universal law of life, the more I could just relax into myself and do what inspired me in the moment.  If I found I was becoming too stressed out about anything it was time to take a step back, to go for a walk, to switch gears and get back to my center.  I’ve had to learn to shake off my tendency to be a workaholic.  When you love what you do and always have creative ideas flowing, it is easy to slip into this driving pursuit.  I found it could also be easy to slip into too much vacation.  Balance is the key!

The Spiritual Journey

Life is a spiritual journey and the more we understand our true purpose for being here the more we can simply settle into life and enjoy the journey.  I have found although it is good to have goals and set intentions it is important to surrender those goals and intentions to a higher power and not try to push them through.  The plans I have made for myself were not always the plans God had for me and when I resisted being in the divine flow things always became stagnant. 

The Initiation

I have found that life can hand us several large initiations of the spirit and I have had my share.  These were journey’s through the dark night of the soul that left me wondering what the hell I was here for.  Ironically some of my best music was created from the darkest moments.  I suppose this was when the emotion within me was so much more intense.  Now that I am happier in my life I’m not as moved to create music.  Music seems to be taking a back seat to other pursuits simply because I am happier, if that makes sense.  But my music has a pretty specific purpose in itself.  It possesses a healing quality about it and was gifted to me for my own healing first and foremost.  It was a candle in the darkness leading me home.  People used to tell me they wished I would play “happier” music.  But this was not the purpose of my music.  It was to bring out the depths of my emotion so I could be healed.  I think those who have not yet experienced such depths of feeling are very resisitant to my music because it awakens something within that they may not want to be awakened. 

Our initiations in life take us to those places so we can bring more of ourselves to life.  It is the water from the tears we shed that carve the canyons of our soul.  The deeper we are carved the deeper our soul and the greater the love and joy we can contain.

Join Me On The Journey!

I’m happy you have come here today and have stumbled upon my words.  May they offer encouragement, inspiration and wisdom no matter how great or small.  We find each other not by accident as there is always purpose in our meeting. 

Thank you for visiting, enjoy the posts and feel free to register and interact with me, if you feel inspired to share.

Kaleah

Kaleah’s Websites:

www.kaleahlaroche.com - This is my catch all site where you will find links to all my other sites as well as a lot of information about my work and my journey.

www.kaleah.com - This is my musical site where you can go and listen to sound samples as well as purchase music.

www.narcissismfree.com - This site is for my work with narcissistic abuse.  You can learn about my e-books and audios here.

www.sedonapsychicreading.com - I put this together while living in Sedona and doing psychic intuitive readings. 

www.designbykaleah.com - This is for my Web Design and Marketing.  I still do some work in this arena for people who really feel drawn to work with me.

www.healthinspirations.com - I’ve always been very health conscious spending a lot of time absorbing new information and practicing different ways of healing and taking care of myself.  I successfully over came an eating disorder as a teenager which inspired my journey into health and wellness.  I have also managed to heal everything that has come my way and know the power of the spirit to heal.  Diet, exercise and attitude about life is also very important.www.heathinspirations