Lately with all of the fear circulating around 2012 including a movie that clearly paints the vision of the end of the world, I have had to ask myself. What if I only had three years to live? What would I do? How would I do things differently?

I realized that this was a theme I needed to embody. Because if we had but three years to change the world, what would we do differently?

The only world that I can change is the world within me. I can change the way I relate to the world. I can change my relationship with myself and with nature. I can change how I relate to others. I can do those things I feel intuitively guided to do.

In talking to a friend tonight I realized that narcissism, which I’ve built my life’s work around, is the opposite of transparency. And it is transparency that I most desire. I don’t want to hide who I am from the world. I want to just let who I am shine through. It is the narcissist who is intimidated by the light and tries to shut it down. I allowed my light to be snuffed out!  But it was my natural inclination to shine.  That is who I am and what I am here for. 

As I worked to understand the narcissist I had to understand also the inner narcissist; the part that resides in my shadow; the part I disown within myself.  It is the part that is not transparent, who feels shame, guilt, inadequacy and attempts to hide it from the world.  Along with those unacceptable feelings and emotions come the hiding of desire, passion, honesty, silliness, ignorance, and also the bitch, the hostility, the anger and all that is not considered attractive.  Like most I have found that I live inside an image.  I believe I should present myself in a way that is “acceptable” at least to a certain group within society. 

Yet what would happen if the world suddenly became transparent?  What if we moved through this portal as a whole and suddenly we became naked?  What if we could see the agendas, the fears, the insecurities, the lies, the deceit, and the depth of our isolation and loneliness?

If I only had three years to live wouldn’t I want to be seen and heard?  Wouldn’t I want to make my life count?  Wouldn’t I want to be the brightest light that I could?  Wouldn’t I want to make an impact with my life?  Perhaps in many ways I am doing this already but I feel another level calling to me.  It is about stepping fully into that Goddess energy and allowing her to fully express through me.  I truly believe this is the age of the emergence of the Goddess, the feminine power rising up into position to bring balance to humanity. 

2012 marks the end of an age.  What does that mean?  Intuitively I have always believed that the death of one age means the birth of another.  I have chosen to be part of the energy of rebirth!  It is the Goddess who gives birth to the new world.  Those of us who align with the energy of the Goddess, whether we are male or female, it doesn’t matter, we are the ones to bring the new world into being.  We do this with our visions and by deeply connecting with our instincts, our intuition, and act upon the guidance we receive. 
So for me the three years to live is really not about dying.  It isn’t about a bucket list.  It is about learning to live in deep harmony with the Mother and the Father who give me life.  If I can truly listen and follow the guidance I hear, then I will be provided for, protected and cared for. 

Should I shed my physical form, I will simply step forth in my new ethereal body free of physical limitation.  With every ending there is a beginning and sometimes it is wise to prepare for the beginning rather than the end.

So I am here to give birth to the new world.  I take responsibility for that!  And I invite all of you who feel that same calling to align with me.  Because the more of us birthing the new world, the more effortless it becomes. 

I am going to talk a lot more about this birth, the process we call the ascension, and also the descension which must happen before one can ascend.  It is my goal to be as transparent as I can in these writings and share my purest intuitive understanding of this powerful and important time on the planet. 

It is too easy to fall asleep and enter the world of the robot, where we follow along with a program that has been enforced upon us.   I can no longer be part of that sleep.  It is time to awaken and know the truth of what awaits us.  It is our fear that keeps us sleeping and it is our fear that causes us to cast judgment  on those who offer another truth.  Like the movie The Matrix we remain comfortable in our imaginary worlds.  We still march along playing a game within a system that outgrew its form long ago.  It is somewhat like someone dying and not realizing they are dead so they go on doing all the same things not realizing they are no longer living in the same world. 

The old world doesn’t work anymore.  We are at the end!  It is time to let go of the structures we have lived within!  The government, the banking system, credit and debt, public schools, the medical system, single family homes, the nuclear family, mass processing of food, retailing of unnecessary items, hospital births, daycare, traditional employment, are examples of these structures.  As we individually stop supporting these systems they will eventually dissolve if nature doesn’t destroy them first. 

As a personal statement of faith I am pulling out!  I have cut up my last credit card.  I still use a debit card at a credit union.  I don’t have a mortgage or a car payment.  I am learning to grow my own food and have changed my diet to mostly organic live foods.  I make my living offering my books, my healing products, my music and my ministry to those who need it.  I work from home so seldom need to even drive a car anymore. 

Instead of being part of the problem or the old energy I choose to be part of the solution, the new energy that is being birthed.  I urge you who feel a sense of excitement and intuitive resonance when you read this to join me in this mission to birth the new world into being.  It is a worthy mission!  And a most powerful way to spend the next three years, or a lifetime!
It is time!