Lately I have been moving from focusing on narcissism and abuse to focusing on the inner journey that seems to result from narcissistic abuse among other things.  It is normally some deep personal crisis or intense inner pain that leads us into the cocoon where we cease to be our former caterpillar selves but have yet to sprout wings and become the butterfly.

The focus on transformation was a natural evolution of working with people who have arrived at this fragile state and in need of guidance in order to understand where they are now and where they are going.  Those who have been stung by the narcissist, can’t go back to life before they met him, or her.  It is a similar state as one who is facing a terminal illness, a death of a loved one, a rape or a tragedy of some sort.   Something has changed that can’t be unchanged.

I like to look at this journey as the journey of the caterpillar to the butterfly.  Once the caterpillar enters the chrysalis there is not going back.  He is wrapped in the web of the cocoon and the transformation process is underway.  This is the time where little seems to be happening on the outside.  It can feel very stagnant and slow yet very painful.  It can seem like not a lot is happening in ones life for the good.  This is because all the energy in ones life is being directed towards the inner transformation.  It is not a time for outer accomplishments, socialization and external appearances.  It is a time of hibernation, of withdrawing from life and the world and focusing ones energy inward. Read the rest of this entry »

Womens Spiritual Healing Retreat in Sedona

For all you wild women who want to get away from your life as it is for a while and step into another dimension, I am arranging a healing retreat in Sedona, Arizona for your mind, body and spirit.  This is for women only, so sorry guys.  We will be eating healthy, hiking, doing yoga, meditating and having ceremony as well as plenty of rest and relaxation in a very beautiful, serene setting.  To find out more go to:

http://www.kaleahlaroche.com/sedona-womens-retreat.php

There is only space for thirteen women so let me know ASAP if you are interested.

Blessings!

Kaleah

This year my intention is to be much more real this year than I was last. The quest to know thyself and reveal what is authentic beneath the layers of the lies that must be shed. As I delve into the work of revealing the narcissist to the world, I must also reveal the narcissist within and once its disguise is exposed I find more of who I really am.

I was walking out in the snow this afternoon with my dogs, on the trail to the river, which takes us through a beautiful pine forest. My walks are often where I get my greatest inspiration and also the deepest messages from spirit. The realization that came to me today was “the one who tells the truth has the greatest personal power.”

I work with many people who feel very deceived in their relationships with a partner who lies to them and misleads them on a regular basis. It is easy to feel disempowered by the lack of honesty in the relationship. The best course of action to reclaim your personal power is to be honest with yourself, regardless of what the other is doing. The truth always comes out in the end.

The person telling the truth is real. While those who avoid the truth are living a lie. Lies are based on fear and insecurity. They are based on a desire to manipulate and fear of accountability. I realized that I have gained the most in my life from finding my authenticity. The more real I become the better my life gets. Read the rest of this entry »

January first started out with a bang as I made the firm decision to let go of all my addictions to unhealthy food and start juice fasting.  Normally when I begin a fast or cleanse of any kind I have a time frame in mind.  I thought I might go for ten days but ended up going for fourteen.  I dedicated a full two weeks to consuming only fresh sqeezed juices, water, teas and miso broth.  I found it was pretty easy to stick to the juice, although I was constantly dealing with feelings of hunger I associated with the empty feeling in my stomach.  The whole idea of fasting is to give the digestive system a break.  True fasting is water only, but that is too much for me.  Juicing still gives my body the nutrients it needs to carry on a normal day while still giving the digestive system a break.

By day ten I had my first healing crisis.  It was a horrible headache and an extremely toxic feeling.  I knew it would pass in one to three days.  I was praying for one day but ended up putting in the three.  Day ten was the worst and each day got a little better until day thirteen I was feeling great.  I decided to start adding a few raw veggies and bites of fruit starting on the fifteenth day.  I knew the dangers of breaking a fast too quickly so started bringing raw foods in very slowly.  It is now day 18 and I’ve been eating a bit of fruit and raw veggies for three days now as I continue juicing.  I’m really starting to feel rejuvenated by the experience. Read the rest of this entry »

Welcome to the launch of my new blog!  This Blog is the meeting place for all my Websites and also a place where I can go and write and share my thoughts and feelings with you.  In 2009 my commitment is to be even more true to myself and more authentic than ever.  It is the year of the great revealing!  We take off our masks and step into the truth of who we are.  Sometimes taking off those masks we wear is a very difficult thing.  Those masks protect our ego and our fragile selves who are in survival mode.

Taking off the masks, letting down the armor, and breaking through the illusions is where we are at right now, the forerunners of the change we seek as a whole.  So as I search myself I look for where I am still hiding and ask myself why I feel I need to hide.  I call those parts of myself still living in the shadows and invite them into the light where it is bright and warm.  Life is good out here!  And this is going to be a phenomenal year!  So visit me often friend and share your thoughts and feelings with me.

Love and Blessings!

Kaleah